Everchanging

"The most frightening thing of all is feelings aren't fixed.

You can be everything one moment

And just enough another

Then nothing at all the next."

- Beau Taplin

Emptied

Sometimes, we give to receive.
But there are times, when we give, only to give some more.
Until there is nothing left at all.
And that is when we fall.

Your silence is murder.

To a Girl

"This is to a girl who got into my head,
With all the pretty things she did.
Hey, you know,
You keep me up in bed.

This is to a girl who got into my head,
With all these fucked up things I did.
Hey, maybe, baby,
You could keep me up in bed."

If only it was easy.

If only...

No one ever gets to see what could've been.

The choices we make

Only regrets and mistakes.

And the demons we know

Only mirrors will show.

Criminal

"Leave me out with the waste

This is not what I do.

It's the wrong kind of place

To be thinking of you.

It's the wrong time

For somebody new.

It's a small crime

And I got no excuse."

Never Ever After

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."

Shit. Sometimes, maybe never at all.

Right/Wrong

It's not wrong to dream, is it?

Like a moth to a flame.

The Fool

The part of him that no one will know.
It's hard for him to let it show.
For the world will hate and curse this fool,
'Cause no man can cleave his heart...
And give it to two.

It's been awhile since I slept with a smile on my face.
Thank you.

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone;
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
It has trouble enough of it’s own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not want your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all;
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life’s gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by;
Succeed and give and it helps you live,
But it cannot help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train;
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

- Solitude, by Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Do you know?

Will she ever know

What his heart has to show?

I won't be nice

Firstly, stop telling every-fucking-one that you're a nice person, or the nicest person they'll ever meet. 'Cause frankly, you're not. And I won't be.

You incriminate and discriminate at your own will. But honestly, judge all you want. The world is only judging you back. You complain and rant about not being good enough, and not being up to par for your own standards. Thing is, that's all you do. Run your mouth off. How bout trying something new and actually do fucking something about it? I've got issues with myself, but heck, at least I fucking try. You're insecure? You think you're the only one? WRONG. So fucking wrong. So change you ignorant prick. Don't try bringing down other people just so you can make yourself feel that little much better.

I am not someone you can fuck around and come to me whenever you're down, alone, or just plain fucked up. Yes, you hate people like that too. Well, guess what? Look in the fucking mirror and fuck your own face. So before you go accusing others of running back to you when you think they don't treasure your company and are only going back to you because they feel lonely, think again pal, FUCKING THINK! Just hear what you're saying. 'Cause I clearly remember those times when you're drowning in your own shit, and suddenly we are the people you hang out with. The people you turn to, the people that stood by you, who went out of their way to accommodate you into their plans. Yeah. People like us. With filth like you grovelling at our feet. Have fun being left out? You threaten people with those words? Honestly, who the fuck do you think you are? Oh and greeting me with a middle finger and thinking it's funny and hip doesn't fly with me.

You bitch about how you've gone down the pecking order in terms of group selection. See what incompetence does to you. You're the epitome of it. So before you go crying and complaining about this selection process, just look at yourself and try to understand where the fuck we're coming from.

So run home and brag about cutting yourself. You think you've experienced pain. You think your life is shitty. Well, let me tell you a little something. You ain't experienced shit. You want to experience pain? I'll give it to you. Cut yourself? Oh please, been there done that. It's stupid how even in your situation you're actually taking self mutilation or suicide as an option. Then all I can say is you haven't seen life. And that it's about time you grow up and learn your fucking role.

In Control?

I would hate to see me out of control...

Forgive & Forget?

To forgive.
And to forgive oneself.
Now, why does it feel...
Like I'm taking the easy way out.

Accuse me? Oh, excuse me!

Think twice before putting me on the line.
You think you're right, but I guess you're just blind.
So how bout a lesson,
I think you need my intervention.
I'll just break you with my fists,
And make you bleed from your face.

Oh you arrogant disgrace.

Cocky Fuck

When a word is too fucking big for you, don't fucking use it.
When someone gives good fucking advice, learn to fucking take it.
Cuz sometimes you're not all that fucking big.
You're not all that fucking good either.
So fucking learn to quieten down,
Step the fuck back and see that you ain't that fucking brilliant.
Yes, learn, you fucking cocky little fuck.

Oh wait, do you even know what it fucking means to fucking learn?
Why don't you just go thesaurus the fuck out of it and still not know what it fucking means. Fucking prick.

I hate myself.

I'm sorry.

Pretenders

I laugh with fake friends.
Oh, how they make my hair stand on end.
And the way they preach and pledge,
Of things they can only pretend
That they might actually give a damn.

Oh, just fuck off and scram.

Happy birthday Jiayi! ♥

A New Lease

You're such a delicate bliss,

One I'm glad I didn't miss.
And darling You're so hard to resist,
Once You blow me a kiss.

Baby, you give this life a new lease.

Burn

He's falling again,
Feel his mind caving in.
For his world has taken a turn,
Now his past has to burn.

Sometimes I wish I could just end it all.
Fuck my life.

There's A Meaning

To start drinking,

Gets me thinking,

Why this life has no meaning.

To start feeling,

Why I'm living,

Makes me realize what keeps me going.

Baby,

It's all the times

I see You smiling.

Fucking two-faced fucks.

Grow a ball or two.

Fucking twat.

It Fades

So long, memory.
May you Rest In Peace.

08/08/06

Moonlight

They gathered as One,

Drinking for the Sun.
To be never undone,
In the Moonlight they had fun.

Four Men as One.

Back At You

Don't incriminate,
'Cause You're so full of it.
So just staple gun those lips,
And let Me be at peace.

Green Eye

Sitting at His corner.

Looking on with those eyes.
Those green judgemental eyes.
And as His blood boils over,
It sears his every vein.

All hail..
The Return of the Green-Eyed Monster.

Getting mind-fucked.
'Cause I'm such a shmuck.

Of Visions & Dreams

A hell that he dreads reliving again.
This memory that never fails to pain.
And the fear of losing the We he sees.
This vision that seeks to haunt his dreams.

Relive This

To lie next to you,
When the world stands still.
Stay awake and watch you wander,
Into a dream of splendid hours.
And by just holding your hand,
It feels like I'm reliving It again.

This world may be cruel,
But it's alright..
'Cause we're taking this step for two.

Not Just A Phase

This feeling that can't be erased.

A feeling that can never be replaced.
I hope and pray it's not just a phase.
'Cause this chemistry could blow up this place.

This feels just right.

A Mismatch

I feel so distant.
Like a total mismatch.
But still I try,
To carry on this charade.
And here I long,
For someone to hold this hand.

Yes,
So that I can feel again.

Heels Over Head?

He's reminiscing of a time.
A time when a life was short and lost.
But now His heels are over His head.
She spins him upside down.

Oh, this choice He has to make.
So fucking inevitable.

Summer

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